Energy vampires

You show up for everyoneBut never for yourself.And you wonder whyYou self hate has increasedDrastically.You give your allTo energy vampires.And you wonder whyYou're feels lessOf yourself and moreOf their negative energy. Be carefulOf who you showUp for.Be careful who youGive your time to.This isn't only about family.This is about your dayTo day life.Let the eyes … Continue reading Energy vampires

Not who I thought

I've got to check myselfCause I thought I knew myself.Through this journey,The hurt childSlowly became theDead child.What was is notWhat is. Your identity is notIn the past.Who am I lookingFor in the past?Just a few gapsThat had to be healed.Don't beat yourselfUp over it.You never knewAbout it. I thought I knew myself.Never thought my pastLead … Continue reading Not who I thought

Some days

Some days I liveTo see me throughYour eyes.Some days I lay inBed and pounderHow others see me.I want to see me throughThe eyes of others. I want to see meFrom a different perspective.Can I see me fromTheir eyes?Can I meet meThrough their memories?Is that allowed? You can meetYou just yetYou are not readyTo see you.You … Continue reading Some days

Still learning

I am stillLearning toTame the beastWithin me.There are momentsI allow it to run wildFor it needs meetMy needs. The vessel is notStrong enoughTo contain this beast.What can I doTo tame this beast? What can I doTo train this beast?Self disciplineDoesn't sound fittingAt this momentFor the flesh is weak. What can be doneTo tame this beastFor … Continue reading Still learning

Summer cool breeze

I can't put my fingerOn this feeling.But you sureDo express it betterThan I.I will leave the expressingTo you.You seem to beIn your feelings I will seat backAnd bask at theWords that comeTo me from you.They are likeThe fresh cool breezeThat blows on youOn a hot summers evening. When the sun startsTo set, the wind comesTo … Continue reading Summer cool breeze

Mine

You are mineMore than youKnow it.I am yoursI just can't feel it.The distance really is a barrierBut I know my GodIs our carrier. He is with meThrough it all.This is what I sayTo keep me fromGoing insane.The distanceIs a barrierBut I mustn'tAllow it to blockMy heart. My heart's for youOnce I found itCould you pleaseTake … Continue reading Mine

Other half

My other halfIs somewhereLiving his life.Someday I knowI will get to speakWith himWho ever he may be.For I trust in the LordHe knows my needsbetter than any man. My other halfWill complete me.For he is my other half.I have never felt complete.I will wait for the day I meetMy other half.What name will iGive him?The … Continue reading Other half

Into hiding

I've never longedFor someone like this.I've never thought IWould yearn for theTouch of your flesh.But with the wave of longingTo be at your side physically,I chase down the feelingsWith my work.I put all into hiding. The distance is aDouble edged sword.We know more aboutEach other thanI could ever imagine.Trusting you is the firstThing I ever … Continue reading Into hiding