I'm always scaredTo fall behindSo I work likeMy life dependsOn it.It does if you thinkAbout it.Without educationWho am I?I have skillsBut no sponsorTo drive it through. Who am iWithout knowledge?Just a plain boringVesselThat has nothingTo offer in this life.Education has madeMe who am I.God has held me throughIt all. So forgive me ifMy thoughtsAnd actions … Continue reading In Retro
Never have I everFelt like thisNever have I everBeing in here.You'd think I'veLearnt my lesson.You'd think I all holyAnd never could doAnything foul. Never have I everFelt like this.But I guessI'm fine with this stage.You learn from itAnd you move on.We are made to move.
Who out thereCan share thePain with me?The boredomOf isolation .The solitudeThat we confined in. What is social?I may be speakingDuring my darkest hours.That's the only timeMy mind is awake.These wordsFlow when I'mIn pain.What's lifeWith no pain.The joy rideAlways comes to an end. Nothing good last foreverI'm glad that it doesnt.But answer meThis one questionIf you … Continue reading Isolation
I do not knowWhat the futureHolds for me.I've just completedOne chapterNow I am in transition.I will not forceThings to happen.I will not plan. In this slowBut sweet transition.I will spendTime with me.I will spend timeTo read. This transitionIs very sweetNo waking upTo prepareFor workNo waking upTo study.This is justMy luck
Money kidnapped it.The child of moneyIs greed.It took a shotAt loyalty.I'm looking aroundMy family.I can see itSlowly dissipate.Lack of moneyBreeds hate and jealousy. You won't stickThrough itWith usWhen it gets bad.But like theseasonal birdsYou come backWhen all is well. Money oh moneyI've seen yourhandy work.True loyaltyYou can't buy.It's a seed thatMust be nurtured.Just like respectYou've … Continue reading Where did loyalty go?
My head my mindOnce was emptyThe wall was up strong.Now I'm all aloneWith nothing butMy studies to completeAnd my future to pounderAbout.I don't know where I'll be2 years from now.I don't know whatThis tiny feeling is about. I'm not scaredI'm just notUsed to beingBlind about my future.My hearts fallen asleepIt's been in a comaSince I … Continue reading Unspoken thoughts
Wishing and mentallycontemplating. If all these tasks wereDoneBy just the thought of it.The pile of workKeeps increasing.I want to open my mouthTo speak to myselfI don't want to lookInsane. Remember You are not alone GOD is your strength. Prayer must be consistent
Your body is fineBut youare not movingYou cantseem to moveYour mind has beenFrozen in time.You cant take partYou know youwant to movebut you cant. The mindand the bodyare twopowerful machines.If your mind is lost,Your body wont moveNo matter how hardYou shout.Its stuckIts frozen in time. You’ve beenphysically immobile.Your mindjust reacted lateLike it always does.Don’t stop … Continue reading Frozen in time
Mentally thinking peopleAre against meWishing for them to understand meMy eyes may be openedBut my ears are glued shut.Hearing the supportFrom people thatNever used to supportIsn't easyTo get used to.With repeatitionMy ears are openedBut my heart is dark.No kind words makeThem beat. Receiving refuge fromOutsiders.Scared to go to famThey don't understandI tell myselfBut why oh … Continue reading Change
How does one findPeace in the mist of chaos?They say completeOpposite tend to attract.Well my peace hasCertainly being tested.In the mist of noiseFake tearsAnd a high pitch studderningOf words from theYounger clans of humans. To enter in the mistOf chaosOne must trainYour mind.I'm in a seasonWhere I'm beingTrained to becomeJake of all trades.Experience is whatWill … Continue reading Peacefully Chaotic