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Being me

My heart beats a little bit faster when I'm around humans.Don't know if that's a thing with othersBut I sure can't cope with that heartbeat.Cause when it starts The bodies start to smudge.Reality starts to look a little distant.Am I living or just experiencing a movie set.What is going on right now?Is this body even … Continue reading Being me

The Black hole

I cry for the child I never got to be.I cry for the way lust snatched innocence out of me.I cry for the nights I was tormented by the events of the past.I cry for the emotions I never could express.There was no time or space to express so I bottled it up. They say … Continue reading The Black hole

Dear Mr panic

I need to wash my hands clean from your filth.I can't seem to think when I'm in your energy.You make all my muscles halt.My lungs don't stretch. They freeze.My heart still beatsDespite your filthy energy.You can't stop me from staying alive.You can't stop me even when you stab me with your knife.As long as one … Continue reading Dear Mr panic

Cooperation

For the first time in foreverMy body is quiet.No tensionNo sparking of my bloodNo internal irritation.Just stillness.My body is finally at peace. And my mind?Well let's just sayIt's still under training.It's like two siblingsMy body and my mind.My mind to say one thingAnd cause my body to react.My soul is a helpless by stander not … Continue reading Cooperation

Who am i

Am I made up of my past,my present?Or am I a combination of both?Who am I?Where does my identity lie?In the past present or future?Who am I?Am I my past?Am I my present?Or is the present me the result of unresolved past traumatic events.What makes me different?Why did it affect me as so?Why did it … Continue reading Who am i

All I am

All I am is a soul In a vessel.All I am is not what I am in.All I m is not definedBy the vessel I am in.Water is not the bottle And bottle is not the water.All I am is not limitedIt's simply drips through partially but not in its entirety.All I am is unknownTo … Continue reading All I am

In your own time

In your own timeKnowledge would come to youAnd you will be amazed and shockedSaying oh is that what that's was.In you own time Decisions will be madeMovements will be smooth.You won't struggle with transition.For the period of transitionWill come to you at ease.In your own timeYou will not struggle with your mindYou will have the … Continue reading In your own time