Dear Mr panic

I need to wash my hands clean from your filth.I can't seem to think when I'm in your energy.You make all my muscles halt.My lungs don't stretch. They freeze.My heart still beatsDespite your filthy energy.You can't stop me from staying alive.You can't stop me even when you stab me with your knife.As long as one …

Unspoken thoughts

Many don't knowOf the load you carry.Your smile and humour tends To hide the pain you feel.How long will you hide the Pain?How long will you go on pretending Everything is fine When you're drowning in your own reality.You're scanning faces Hoping someone sees the Person held captive.They say our eyes are the keysTo the …

The whispers

The whispersI can hear.The actions areConfirmationOf the thoughtsThat play in your mind. The whispersI can hear.Your words tell meWhat those whispersTell you. Allow me to intervene.Allow me to disruptThe flow of negativityWithin you. Let my wordsWash over thoseWhispers in your mind. The whispers in your mindI can hear Allow meTo intervene.I can helpBut it is …

Less Than

It's never said bluntly.You just have to readIn between the words they speak.You ain't like themEven though you are with them.You try to act like themBut you still ain't one of them. You start to fall short.They start to come at youWith their words.Making you feel less than them.Even when you were raised by them.You …

Energy vampires

You show up for everyoneBut never for yourself.And you wonder whyYou self hate has increasedDrastically.You give your allTo energy vampires.And you wonder whyYou're feels lessOf yourself and moreOf their negative energy. Be carefulOf who you showUp for.Be careful who youGive your time to.This isn't only about family.This is about your dayTo day life.Let the eyes …

Damned if I do, damn if I don’t

I'm filled with such emotions.I I'm unable to express.So I let out weird soundsCause thats my soul speaking.My emotions are comingThrough.Gone are the days when IPress them down.They are they to be expressed.So I go against the wave ofAnixiety and I expressThem in words when they comeOr in groans and random outburst. We don't come …

Scared but willing

I am scaredBut willingTo go throughWith it.Because i knowIt is good.I know that itWill be worthIt in the long run. I am scaredBut willingTo go throughWith it.Because I knowThere will be helpAlong the way.I know I am notIn this aloneEven when itFeels like it at times.

Affirmation

You are allowed.You are permitted.You are okay.You will be  fine.Nothing you've doneIs wrong.Communicate, speak,Express yourself.They are all differentThey won't judge you. You asked for help.Well done.They do care.Shut down thatNegative voice.Everything is alright.You've doneNothing wrong.Just breathe.

Choked up

You've done it again Pushing it down Thinking it won't come out. It's worse. It's gone bad. Left or right Who should I speak to. Would speaking help? What happens if it doesn't All these thoughts piling up. Where and who? I have no more space I'm mentally choking up. Push it all out. You …

Speed train

Blur I close my eye Head is turning Everyday blending into one It doesn't seem to stop I'm on a speed train. The speed doesn't seem to slow down. 3rd year is mad It goes by so fast If u ain't careful You will be left behind Survival of the smartest That is what uni …